...I did agree?!

If I did agree, who I am today?!
Will it make me more mature?
Will it make me happier?
Will it make me stronger?
Will it make me better?

or

is it the other way around?


Regret, as for me, is part of my life, I often feel regretful for the things that I haven't done. I can always here people say "The only thing you live to regret are the risks you didn't take."

TRUE.

If you had one thing in life that you're most regretful of is the thing that you could have done but decided not to. Fear is one the factors why people chose not to take the risk. Fear of rejection, fear of disappointment and most of the time, fear of failure.

Some people just don't have enough courage to face all those fears (guilty of charge), thus they end up being regretful over the things that were supposed to happen.

I have been wondering about this one incident way back ten thousand years ago (oops! Just exaggerating!) I think this is the first and (hopefully) the last time that I will be mumbling about this incident. But I won't be giving too much details because it's already in the past. Moreover, the reason behind this entry is just... I just want to vent things out.

This incident has a huge blow on me. People around me doesn't know that this incident has this BIG impact on me. They thought, all the while (and up to now) that it doesn't matter to me at all, but the truth is, it matters to me.. big time. I just don't want them to know because I don't want to cause burden to other people. I'm afraid that they will ask and I don't have any answer to their inquiries.

I am not as regretful as you may think.
It's just...
there are times that I can't help but think about it.
There are a lot of what if's in my mind when I came across with this memory.

I wonder what will I become if I did the other way around...
I wonder what will WE become if the other way around happens...

Perhaps,
things will never be same..

I am still mystified every time I bumped into this person. I always got crazy ideas. I would always have notions like this one.

BEWILDERMENT, pare!

But in the end, I still believe that the decision I made before, was part of the great plan for me and I believe that it's one thing that I will never forget.. for the rest of my life..

Labels: Emo-ness, First Times, Nostalgia, Venting out