These past few days, I've been always realizing, again, the value of my friends.. there are a lot of instances that test my friendship with the people whom i consider gifts of God.. some situations even resulted to partial separation but God didn't allow it to end... He had made something impossible which leads to the reconciliation of the group.. I am very thankful that God used me for that resettlement...

I am thankful to God that He had given me my high school friends... In this friendship, God is in the center and we are truly bonded by faith. I know hat God had made our small reunion happen so that each of us may share his/her relationship with Him. From that moment when we are sharing things about God.. upon hearing their stories about faith, passion and everything about God.. i just realized how weak my faith was.. i used to be "on fire" with Him, but it's just a while.. when His teachings to me slowly disappears and so my "fire" slowly vanishes.. i already shared this with my friends.. but what i am very thankful to them is that... they are the one who draws me near to God when i was in my 2nd year in high school and today.. they are the one who brings me back to God, in my 2nd year in college.. i don't think that this is just a mere coincidence, it was God's plan.. and i am really overwhelmed with what had happened on that day!! and that moment, i realized how blessed i am to a have them as my friends.. once again, i realized how valuable our friendship was..

from that day, God's works are continuously working on me.. for instance, last Sunday, when i look through my old things, i found a notebook.. i was surprised on the things written on that notebook.. it was my learning's about Christ.. before "that day" happened i never recalled anything about that notebook.. but when i saw it on our old house.. all of the things i wrote there flashes back.. i was really amazed.. God was really helping me to get through this.. from that moment, i realized that, before, i really do have a relationship with God.. i even have a daily devotion with Him.. i can't believe that i put it all away..

i also realized that when i was on fire with Him, i speak and write fluent English, i feel excellent with everything that i do and there's an inner happiness within me even if i am having difficulties on my own.. but when i go back to my old habits (when i haven't know God as my Lord and saviour) i felt so depressed, i felt so down.. i felt that the world crushed on me.. i am on my lowest system.. and i can't bear that.. life was very different when you don't have God in your life..

now, i am taking things slowly but surely.. one step at a time.. i always believed that "the only constant thing on earth is change".. also i believe that change should not be rushed.. its not like magic, with a snap of a finger, everything will change.. i know, there's a perfect time for everything.. in God's time... i know!

Labels: Friends 4ever, God's Word, Life Lessons

this week maraming nangyari.. pero ang pinaka highlight sa week na 'to e nung friday.. pero before that.. isang sulyap sa nakaraang linggo..

lunes..
walang pasok.. pero umalis ako ng bahay dahil may practice daw ng drama presentation kila lucille.. but it turns out to be an excursion.. pero masaya naman yun dahil napag-planuhan namin dun ang gagawin sa big day , March 23 [friday]

martes..
presentation na ng aming drama na "My Father Goes To Court".. maayos naman naming nai-present yun.. //nag-take kami ng aming pre-finals sa Chem.. nairaos ko naman yun e multiple choice pa naman yun, di ko masyadong gusto ganung type ng exam kasi feeling ko lahat ng choices dun, yun ang tamang sagot..

miyerkules..
unang araw ng finals namin, departmental yun.. tapos apat na subject agad.. isang bagsakan, asar.. Rizal, Health Eco., STS, at Phil. Lit.. sa kabutihang palad ay nasagutan ko naman lahat, kasi multiple choice din lahat yun.. nakapagbasa din naman ako, kahit papano, ng mga notes, kaya hindi ako nangamote..

//nung araw ding ito muling nagkasama-sama sa pagkain ang khyx's 12 d' originals, matapos ang bagyo sa aming grupo.. akala ko e hindi na ulit yun mangyayari, na buo ulit kaming kakain.. sa KFC [faura] ito naganap.. ayos talaga.. pero as usual hindi kasama dun si yeye at corina.. ok lng.. at least... :D

huwebes..
2nd day ng exam, Chemistry lang.. magaling-magaling-magaling.. 50 items lang yung exam.. tapos agad sa loob ng kalahating oras.. nagsiuwian na yung iba namin classmate.. pero kami [ako. malou. mae. mona], mejo nagliwaliw muna.. una sa bahay nila malou, tapos punta samin, sa boarding house, tulog dun.. tapos punta kami robinson's ermita, kain sa goldilocks.. actually mas matagal pa yung time na nagkwentuhan kami goldilocks kesa sa pagkain namin dun.. dami namin nag-usapan at dun ko lang, first time, naka-usap ng ganun katagal si mona at mae.. thanks, it was a really realy good conversation!

biyernes..
the big daynung umaga, exam sa Health Care.. ayos lang, papasa naman ako... tapos ng exam, kumpulan na at pinaghahandaan na namin ang aming lakad... san pa ba, e di sa pinakamimithi kong STAR CITY.. yahoo! punta muna kami kila malou, dun na kami nananghalian kasi nga 2 pa magbubukas yung STAR CITY, e 9:30 natapos yung exam namin.. tapos ayun.. bihis na.. at larga... STAR CITY, HERE WE COME!

idaan ko na lang sa pictures, ang kasiyahan ko... i can't put it in words.. [more pictures here]




sa wakas, matapos ang dalawang taon kong paghihintay, natuloy din ang pagpunta ko ng star city.. imagine, simula nung mag-college ako, gustong-gusto ko nang pumunta ng STAR CITY or Enchanted Kingdom, basta kahit anong place na maraing rides.. lalo pang tumindi yung pagkagusto ko nun nung mabasa ko yung "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" kung saan ang first setting niya ay sa isang Amusement Park.. tapos simula din na "mag-CRAVE" ako sa STAR CITY, tuwing may balak na pumunta dun, lagi na lang hindi natutuloy.. lagi na lang ako nafru-frustrate.. ako'y naging isang FRUSTRATED STAR CITY-GOER.. haayz...

pero katulad nga ng sinabi ko fun sa entry ko about "frustration", hihintayin ko na lang yung time na i-a-allow ako ni Lord na pumunta nga doon.. and that time was last Friday.. sobrang saya ko talaga nun.. as in.. walang makapagpaalis ngngiti sa mga labi ko... walang bagay ang makapagpa-bad trip sa akin.. super-mega-hyper talaga ang energy ko nun.. as in.. kahit na nasira pa yung camera ko nun [which is dapat talagang kababadtripan ko..] wala talaga, tuloy pa rin.. hinanapan ko ng paraan para magamit ko yun, kaya ayun, naging de-scotch tape pa yung camera ko..

hayun, basta sobrang saya ko.. and one more thing na nakapagpasaya sakin dun e, dahil muling nagkaroon ng bonding ang K12DO, after the misunderstanding that happens, this is the perferct time to catch up para sa mga time na nagkahiwalay kami.. guys, thank you.. this is a very memorable day for all of us.. kahit hindi kunmpleto.. sobrang saya pa rin talaga.. thank you talaga for making this happen.. mwah!!

i feel so complete... natupad ko na ang pinamatagal ko nang minimithi.. the best talaga.. promise...

next stop: Enchanted Kingdom..... ehehe! sana! [pero di ko na masyadong pinapangarap yun..]

Labels: Events, Exaggeration, Friends 4ever, Happy-ness, Photo ops

MARCH 17, 2007

from 12 am until the day ends (almost).. it is such a big big day. it was full of things that made me value my friends for.. one big DAY, TWO wonderful yet different friendship..

HOSEA, SOLID!
the greatest and the bestest friends i've ever got.. sobrang blessed ako to have you as my friends.. wala nang hihigit pa..

nagkaroon kami ng onting get together nung March 16, friday overnight kila ivy..(march 17, gets) si genesis kasi ngayun lang ulit namin makikita after a year ngayun lang kasi siya nakabalik ng cavite.. this is our chance to have a reunion.. our plan was kami lang mga girls ang mag-o-overnight, pero hindi makakasam si jennell at jeverly for some reasons and sympre si hannah (miss you brue!).. it was a whole lot of fun.. everything is fun.. pero ang pinakamasaya dun is yung nung ng-shraring kami.. sharing tungkol sa buhay buhay namin, yung mga latest happening na nangyayari, and most of all yung relationship namin with God.. our conversation about God moved me, it really touches my hearts, it strikes me up..

that conversation made me realized everything about my relationship with God, i will not give the datails about the thing that i realized but let me say, i am very thankful that we had that moment, we had that chance to talk.. i can say that this friendship of our will last forever.. i am very blessed that i belong to this friendship bonded by faith, centered to God.. we started this friendship through God and i know, deep in our hearts, even if we didn't see or communicate to each other, that often, we would always be friends by hearts, by mind and by soul..


of course, our reunion will always never be complete kung walang pictures, protocol na namin yun, we're always full of photos, caputuring every moments.. take a peek.. [more photos here!]











Khyx's 12 D' Originals
March 17 at around 6pm.. after 5days of the "misunderstood" situation, eto na ang paghaharap.. wait sounds like "gulo", palitan natin.. nagkaroon na ng pag-uusap sa grupo, nagbigay ng kanya kanyang side and bawat isa, kahit hindi lahat nagsalita, at least kahit papano e nakapag-usap usap na..

nung una, lima pa lang ang nag-uusap, pero sa dahil sa aking pangungulit e napapunta ko yung iba.. mejo may tension sa kwarto. maliban sa mainit talaga yung kwarto, mararamdaman mo yung init ng sitwayson.. kinakabahan pa ako sa mangyayari, nung una, akala ko hindi maayos ang mga bagay kasi nga parang wrong timing yung ginawa ko.. may mga naglabas na ng sama ng loob at hinanakit.. at kinabahan pa ako kasi may mga nagb-breakdown na, as in emotional breakdown.. sobrang kinabahan talaga ako.. kung may mangyaring masama pa sa kanila, ako ang mananagot (aba dapat lang, kasi ako ang may pakana ng lahat ng ito..) pero buti na lang at hindi nagtuloy-tuloy.. napakalma naman ang bawat isa.. nasabi ko pa sa sarili ko na sobrang pakialamera ko na.. but thanks to one of them, sabi niya hindi naman daw ako pakialamera dahil may karapatan naman daw ako makialalam dahil part ako ng group.. thank you!

after that effin conversations, may mga bagay na na-clear at may mga nagkaayos.. thankful na ako dun.. at the end, hindi man nagsalta ang lahat, hindi man nagkaayos ang lahat.. ok lang.. nirerespeto ko yung pananahimik nila, i think hindi pa talaga sila handa at hindi pa yun yung time para sa kanila.. i now, in God's perfect time, makakapag-usap pa din sila.. i know..

pipol, thank you for appreciating my effort.. thank you din dahil naging friends ko kayo, and i will always treasure everything.. salamat sa pagsakay sa kalesa ng buhay ko..

take time to look at these ang laugh.. ang sarap lang pagmasdan.. mapapangiti ka talaga..

Labels: Events, Friends 4ever, Happy-ness, Photo ops

current MOOD: "WINDANG"
current MIND: CRAZY
current STATE: INSANE

i'm havin' a hard time with my friends today, my friends in EAC.. "Khyx's 12 D' Originals", the group where i belong.. i haven't mentioned it in any of my entries but they are the one whom i share my college life with.. now this group of mine is BROKEN..

**this is the reason why i post about "friends" on my previous entry.. maybe i'm just wondering how my friends define the word "friend".. but for me, i already discovered what does the word "friend" means,, it's just simply means: hannah, jeverly, genesis, jennifer, jocelyn, jennell & ivy.. for that's what really "friends" means.. i could not ask for more...**

**pwede ba mag-Tagalog**

ang Khyx's 12 D' Originals ay nabuo ngaung 2nd sem ng aming 2nd year sa college.. binubuo ni:

1. Mary Anne Dumlao
2. Ayeza Miguela Ebreo
3. Ma. Ana Enriza Hilario
4. Ma. Louise Lozano
5. Jeanine Mangona
6. Corina Mojar
7. Mona Erica Monillas
8. Jaysee Rei Reyes
9. Yvette Margienette Sandoval
10. Julie-Ann Soriano
11. Emy Grace Tuazon
12. Ma. Lucille Tulalian

nabuo kami dahil kami ang mga magkakaklase nung 1st sem. syempre kami ang laging magkakasama.. magkakasama sa galaan, tawanan, bargasan, asaran, kalokohan, ka-abnormalan, laitan, pulaan,biruan, kainan at sa kahit ano pa mang -an.. sobrang saya namin pag kompleto kami.. parang wala nang laban ang ibang kapag kami ang nagkasama-sama.. mga boses namin ang naghahari sa loob ng classroom.. haaay!!

tapos biglang isang araw... boooom! wow! bigla na lang naglaho ang Khyx's 12 D' Originals.. isang pangayayri ang gumulantang sa buong grupo.. nahati na ang grupo..

isang pangyayari noong lunes [03.12.07-at talagang sa 12^th day pa nangyari.. 12].. isang pangayayring hindi ko alam, pangyayaring unti-unting nagpahiwalay sa grupo, pangayayring hindi ko matukoy kung ano ang pinnagugatan.. hindi ko maintindihan.. wala ako nung panahong nangyari ang mga ito kaya wala akong karapatang magkwento kung ano ba talaga ang tunay na nagyari.. nagulat na lang ako kinabukasan at magkahiwalay na sila.. WINDANG! wala akong alam sa pangyayari..

pero iniisip ko, mabuti na lang at wala ako nung nangyari yun, mabuti na lang at hindi ako pumasok nung lunes, mabuti na lang at hindi ako kasama sa pagkakahati.. kaibigan ko pa rin sila pareho.. ang problema nga lang, naiipit ako sa gitna.. may kanya-kanya silang side ng story, may kanya-kanya silang point, may kanya-kanya din silnag hinanakit.. ang hirap ng sitwasyon ko..

ang kinakalungkot ko lang, hindi ko aakalaing aabot sa ganito, hindi ko akalaing aabot sa point na magkakasumbatan, hindi ko akalaing magiging gaito ang mga reaksyon nila, hindi ko akalaing may itinatago nang hinanakit ang bawat isa,hindi ko akalaing may makakapagbitaw ng masasakit na salita, hindi ko akalaing magiging ganito ang grupo at higit sa lahat, hindi ko akalaing hahantong na lang sa ganito yung pinagsamahan namin..

nakakalungkot, pero totoo.. umaasa pa rin ako, na sana pagdating ng panahon, maging ok na ang lahat, hindi man bumalik sa dati, magkakaayos ang bawat isa.. ayokong dumating sa point na, kung magkasalubong kami sa isang lugar, baka ni hindi magawang tingnan ang isa't-isa at umarteng parang walang nakikita.. sa likod ng isip ko, umaasa pa rin akong babalik sa dati ang lahat.. haaay..

kahit karamihan sa kanila, konting panahon ko pa lang nakaksama, naging parte na sila ng college life ko at hindi na yun mawawala, kahit hindi kasing tindi ng pagmamahal ko sa nga highschool friends ko,. napamahal na rin sila ng todo sa akin, kaya sobrang sakit nitong nangyaring 'to.. :( sumasakit na ang ulo ko kakaisip sa mga pangayayari,.. [buti na lang, yung mga friends ko, ang Hosea Girls, kahit magkakalayo kami, nanjan pa rin lagi.. mahal na mahal ko kayo! Thank God I found you!]..

sana maayos pa talaga ang grupo, sana hindi na lalaong lumala ang alitan, sana wala nang masasakit na salita ang lumabas, sana maging ok na!

haaay, ano kaya ang pwede kong gawin?!?!

hmmm... sabi nga ni hannah, everything happens for a reason, maybe sa ngayun, hindi pa natin malaman o maintindihan yung mga reason na yun but i know, in God's perfect time, we will realize each and every reason for all the things that are happening to us right now and also we may realize how important it is, to happen in our lives..

Labels: Friends 4ever, Insanity Strikes, Venting out

kaibigan, barkada, tropa, friend...

sino nga ba sila?!
sa mga panahong ito, marami na ang nagiging ibig sabihin ang term na "friend"..
pero ano ba talaga ang ibig sabihin nito..

ikaw, para sayo..

ano ba talaga ng ibig sabihin ng salitang kaibigan?!
ano ba ang isang kaibigan?

Labels: Daily Musings, Friends 4ever

i am no longer "TOXIC", that's why i decided to change my layout! i made this a month ago but i don't feel like using it because it doesn't fit my mood.. but now, even if doesn't COMPLETELY suit my mood.. i use it for the sake that i changed my layout.. i just love the statement above: "what makes you different, makes you beautiful" (motto ng mga hindi masyadong biniyayaan ng kagandahan.. hahaha! joke) but seriously, that's true! you don't have to go with the flow just to become beautiful.. beauty comes within.. looks fade aways with time but the beauty within us never ever fades.. it stays.. it lasts.. so dare to be different.. dare to be beautiful..

**as i have said, i am no longer toxic.. we've finished all our requirements.. almost! we're through with our reports & research. we've already presented our Synchronized Swimming and we got a score of 98% i didn't expect that we would get that high score.. whew! thank God, my choreography thingie was worth it! and of course, we're through with our effin Community Diagnosis (CDx), we're about to pass it tomorrow to our C.I... i really thank God that we we're almost through.. i thank Him for all the knowledge and wisdom, for the patience he head given to me.. it was all for Him..

**for all those who tagged me, i'm sorry for not doing it.. i was just really busy! probably next time, i'll do it! ayyt?! :D

**by next week it will be our final exams, i should study harder.. i'm afraid i might flunked the exam because i had lost my interest in some of my subjects these past few weeks, maybe its because of those UBER plenty of requirements.. need to study REAL hard!

**i just wanna share a cute&funny txt msg i recieved last thursday, it goes like this:

a cute thought:
"kapag nahuli ka niyang
nakatingin sa kanya.."

lagi mong tatandaan,

"hindi ka niya mahuhuli
kung hindi ka din niya
tinitingnan"

naks! :)

Labels: Daily Musings, Emo-ness, Extra Challenge, Life Lessons

frustration
[ fruhs-trey-shuhn ]

• a human emotion that occurs in situations where one is blocked from reaching a personal goal. ¹

frustrated
[ fruhs-trey-ted ]

• disappointingly unsuccessful; "disappointed expectations and thwarted ambitions"²

my currents status..

you may think that this was so shallow but i don't care! i was so frustrated!

it was planned that we will to go to Star City on Saturday as a farewell party for our C.I. but they told me, a while ago, it was cancelled. HINDI NA DAW MATUTULOY! i was really frustrated. disappointed or whatever.. damn! i really really want to go to Start City or any amusement park.. it was my frustration since i entered my sophomre year in college.. i know that we won't be able to have this chances when we enter our Nursing proper.. everytime we plan to go to Star City, it was like there was some kind of a bad luck and it was always cancelled.. i really hate it! i may sound childish but i really want to go there..

ang babaw talaga ng mga pinagsasabi ko!!

but i am really frustrated! my friends even said, as a joke, i could go there on my own!! HALLER! are you serious?! where's the fun?!?!! c'mon.. i was hurt.. argggh!!but i am not angry with my friends, i was just really frustrated.. really frustrated!



on the other hand,
i thought, i should not be so pushy with that.. i know one day.. MATUTULOY DIN YUN! but i hope, it won't take long.. i hope..




//thanks to tinypic.com, as an alternate image host while photobucket is under maintenance.. and also pxn8.com, as an online photo editor..

Labels: Exaggeration, Insanity Strikes, Venting out

yay!!!

our defense for our
CDX
is
over

i can't believe it.. ang huling paghuhukom ay tapos na! whew! at first, lahat kami kabado.. tingin ko e kahit hanggang dulo kabado pa rin kami!! the whole presentation was fine.. pero hindi pa rin maiiwasan yung mga silent moments.. yung tipong pag nagtanong yung C.I. namin e parang lahat ng utak namin e nag-teleport sa ibang planeta.. pero bumabalik din naman agad.. mejo may sablay talaga sa presentation.. i was expecting it naman based on sa preparations na ginawa namin (may preparations nga bang ginawa?!).. well, basta it's just like this.. sumugod kami sa giyera na ang hawak lang naming sandata ay cutter.. yun na yun..

but still kahit ganun yung nangyari.. i was just glad that i am one of the students na na nasabihan nang:

"good work, though!"

i really thank God dahil sa pangyayaring ito at sa lahat ng ito, hindi niya ako pinabayaan.. thank God talaga for the wisdom.. sobrang nakaka-overwhelm yun.. coming from a C.I. na sobrang pinadugo yung utak mo! really, i even cried after hearing that.. thank God talaga.. even hindi ito yung pinapangarap kong defense namin, sobrang proud pa rin ako! as in! Thank God!

this are some of our photos while preparing for the defense, i think this is my.our way of releasing our tensions.. pampaalis ng kaba!!


yeyz, corporate.. san office natin.. iba pala itsura at aura pag desente ang suot.. hehe!


//follow-up na lang yung ibang photos, wala na ko time e.. sa computer shop lang ako e! ciao!>

[[edit-March 07, 2007]]
eto na yung mga photos ko.. pagpasensyahan at talagang kabado lang...

na-tripan ko na naman ang black&white.. porma weh!! wala kaming picture as a group, kanya-kanyang review kasi e.. mga tensionado.. ge eto lang.. di pa ko nakakapag-edit ng photos e.. enjoy (i hope so! :D)


july.rhobbie.yvet


july.rhobbie.yvet.lev


senti kuno, pero kabado naman


moOodeLz kuno.. taray!


retouch muna, natutunaw na yung make-up ko e!


wala lang.. emote emote emote

Labels: College Blues, Life Lessons, Photo ops, Toxicity

warning:
"ito ang epekto na pag-iisa sa boarding house sa loob ng apat na araw.."

• ang TAE ng buhay
• maraming bagay dapat intindihin
• sabi nila lahat ng bagay may rason, may dahilan.. pero madalas hindi ko magawang maintindihan yung mga dahilan na yun, kahit na alam kong dapat intindihin yun!
• ang GULO!
• maraming nang bagay ang nagbago
• hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses ko nang binalak na magbago... pero hanggang balak na lang lagi yun!
• may mga nararamdamang pilit itinatago//mahirap magpanggap!
• kung bibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataong bumalik sa nakaraan.. hindi ko na babaguhin ang mga nangyari.. gusto ko lang malaman kung bakit ganun ang nangyari..
• on second thought, may mga bagay pa rin akong gustong baguhin, yung mga desisyon kong lalong nakapagpahina sa akin..
• ano nang meron sa friendster?
• nababalewala na lahat..
• libre lang ang mangarap.. nasa sa atin na lang kung pa'no natin tutuparin ang mga ito..
• Q: anong "C" ang favorite na pagkain ni Bugs Bunny?! // A: "Cacamber"..... LOLzzz
• am i your friend?
• marami akong namimiss.. lalo na si YVETTE MARGIENETTE P. SANDOVAL, 4 years ago
• ang TAE, laging nilalapitan ng LANGAW!
• lemonsquarecupcakevegetablesaladwiththousandislanddressing... freaked out!
• daydreaming.. isang napakaganda at nakakaaliw na hobby
• prospero pichay.. PRO-PINOY *w/ matching hand signal* ITAMIN sa SENADO! [**hoy, hindi ako nangangampanya, mukha kasing TAE ung mga political ads ng mga kandidato for senaTER e..**]
• politics is a crime!
• posible kayang maging mental patient ako?
• may umaalis, may dumarating
• ano ba talaga ang ibig sabihin ng happiness!
• takot na akong magmahal ulit!
• am i worthy?!
• kapag sobrang inis ka na sa tao.. as in yung inis na inis ka.. ok lang ba na tadjayakan mo siya sa mukha, sabay bugbugin mo hanngang hindi na siya makatayo, pasagasaan mo sa 100-wheeler na truck, ipalapa mo sa lion, ipambala sa kanyon, ilagay sa gitna ng sumasabog na bulkan, lunurin sa nagyeyelong ilog at pasakan ng poste ng meralco ang ilong?!?! ok lang ba yun?!
• gusto kong lumipat ng school! EAC sucks!
• "kung wala ka rin lang na sasabihin maganda, manahimik ka na lang"
• there's too much sh*t on this world!
• dooooooooon't you dare take up nursing...
• hannah, jhenny, jocelyn, ivy, jennell, genesis, jeverly... miss ko na kayo! need someont to talk to
• princess hours.. still hooked!
• i miss being a "hopeless romantic"
• last but not the least...
• ang TAE talaga ng buhay..

pahabol:
"kaya mahirap ang nag-iisa, nakaka-baliw!
kaya kailangan ko ng boyfriend!!!
**echoz lang!, joke yun!
ang maniwala, magsasara ang pwet!
wala nang TAE!
<33"

Labels: Insanity Strikes, Random Rants