Thursday, December 29, 2005 @ 10:43 PM by Marj |
nena_p3 (29/12/2005 17:19:18): kung may nssabi sa u, dont get mad, accept it as a challenge, and dont consider it as a criticsm
my mom really knows me, she knows when i'm mad, and she finds a way to taught me some advice on my behavior. i can say that my heart melts everytime that i had a bad situation with any members of my family, i always ended up crying and putting my self down, really down. i consider it sometimes as inferiority complex, i don't know why, but everytime i'm in that situation wny self-esteem and self-confindence always dissappear out of my soul. i need to work on that.
i'm also happy that when i needed someone to talk to, i got my best friend, he has the perfect timing of all, at least even if he doesn't know the whole situation, he was still there to hear [or the read] my sentiments. i'm really thankful that i got a friend in him even we don't see each other personally, i know that no matter happens, his words are there to comfort me and to make me smile once in a while, thanks best!
another day had passed, and another situation accomplished! better watch out!... wink:)
Wednesday, December 21, 2005 @ 10:56 AM by Marj |
si blue ears-ngayun nawawala na yung crush ko sa kanya, textmate na kami, consistent, araw-araw, iba tlaga! about his love.. nakakaawa at nakakainis siya at the same time, alam mo kung bakit, NAKAKAAWA siya kasi lagi na lng niyang iniisip yung problem nilang dalwa and lagi xang malungkot, NAKAKAINIS, kasi hindi naman ganun kalaki yung problema niya [in my opinion ha!] masyado niyang dinidibdib, pero di naman ako naiinis sa kanya, nag-aadvice pa nga ko sa kanya, and i hope nakakatulong ako ant hindi lalong nagpapagulo, sana magkaroon na silang dalwa ng peace of mind! pra hindi sila nakakasakitan...- friendster-nakakatamad na yung friendster, la ka na ibang pwedeng gawin, nakakasawa din magpalit ng magpalit ng profile... kasi ba naman ang daming nagpapaayos sakin ng appearance ng friendster nila, dami pang demands [oi sori sa mga tinatamaan ha!] inaayos ko din naman eh, wag lang nila kong madaliin, kasi nakakatamd tlaga minsan!
- birthday-daming mga birthday yung nagdaan,si hannah[12.10] namimiss ko na siya, sayang di ko siya napadalahan ng regalo, kinapos kasi ung 'ends' ko kaya di ko natuloy yung balak ko! oi han baka sa january na 'ko makabili nung shoes mo, di kasi ko makapunta ng manila ngayun eh! next si tatay[12.12] wala rin ako regalo, dapat kasi bibili ako nun sa sm[manila], kasi pinabibili ako ni mama, kaya lang la ako mapili, kaya di na ko bumili! sabi din naman ni mama siya na lang daw yung bibili!, si carlo[12.16] wala lang nagluto ako ng spaghetti, ang maganda lng nangyari dun natawa ako kay harvey kasi dun sa mga pinagsasabi niya "bakit hindi masaya?" "bakit walang regalo?" "bakit walang balloon?" nakakatwa yung reaction niya!, si sophia[12.18] di niya yun birthday, 7 months na kasi siya eh kaya naghanda, lomi lang pero ang sarap, si mama[12.20] yun kakaiba. yung b-day girl mainit ang ulo... kung bakit, akin na lang yun, nagluto akon ulit ng spaghetti, tapos may pansit, calderetang kambing, at may cake! ewan ang gulo! basta sana kahit papano naging masaya si mama! grabe daming birthday may pahabol pa sa 12.25, si brent, ano kaya manyayari!
- christmas-malapit na ang Christmas, yung mga regalo ko! hahaha
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Sunday, December 11, 2005 @ 10:01 PM by Marj |
The song "12 Days of Christmas" was created at a time when Catholics in England were prohibited by law to practice their faith. The Christmas carol was created in order to help young Catholics learn the tenets of their faith. "My true love" doesn't refer to an earthly suitor but to God himself, "me" refers to us, and the "partridge in a pear tree" refers to Jesus Christ. The other symbols mean the following:
- 2 Turtle Doves = the Old and New Testament
- 3 French Hens = the theological virtues, namely faith, hope, and charity
- 4 Calling Birds = the four Gospels and/or the four evangelist
- 5 Golden Rings = the first five books of the Old Testament (the "Pentateuch")
- 6 Geese A-Laying = the six days of creation
- 7 Swans A-Swimming = the seven sacraments
- 8 Maids A-Milking = the eight beautitudes
- 9 Ladies Dancing = the nine fruit of the Holy Spirit
- 10 Lords A-Leaping = the Ten Commandments
- 11 Piper Piping = the 11 faithful apostles
- 12 Drummer Drumming = the 12 points of doctrine in the Apostle's Creed
Saturday, December 03, 2005 @ 11:22 PM by Marj |
12.01.05
this was the result of my endless day-dreaming! this was the time when i can't get HIM out of my mind... i don't know why, maybe just my fantasy and paranoia. wonder what are these acronyms? people who knows me, knows what it means... for those who don't, its for you to find out! harhar! hahahahaha! my post was late but its fine, 'cause its my blog! who cares?! this is me, this is real!
12.02.05
it's my recent post, the long one! some just stick around or just go!
12.03.05
plenty of things happened and it was so unpredictable. take a look! i won't focus more on details, i'm quite tired... bonza!
huhu! napagalitan ako ni Ms. Mercado [prof in Fil] kasi nagtatanggal ako ng split ends. huhu, nakakahiya... -oh no! for the first time in my second semester in college, napagalitan ako dahil sa SPLIT ENDS, take note: "SPLIT ENDS" it sure really an embarassing moment for me. then she also said: "hey miss stop it, baka lumipad yung buhok mo" [it was not really the exact same thing na sinabi niya but hits me] i was just pulling off the splits ends and then she notices me! oh my, it's really embarassing! 10:35am
sumasakit yung ulo ko. ewan ko ba, kulang yata sa tulog. -maybe, kulang nga ako sa tulog, kaka-internet. no, nagiging addict na ko dito a, and kaya siguro talaga sumakit yung ulo ko, parang nanggagaling kasi sa mata eh! nd hindi naman ako pwede matulog kasi my class pa, kaya i ignored it na lang! 10:45am
ma'am said na 'sa bawat pagtayo mo sa klase [pagsagot i mean], it's one way of pagtitiwala mo sa sarili!! [great! sapul ako] -she's really a sharp-shooter, tinamaan talaga ako, it just came to me that i needed to boost my self-confidence so that i can achieve my goals!
"MAN IS WOLF TO MAN"-Thomas Hobbes/ "MAN IS THREAT TO MAN"-prof.
i can never forget this qoute! oh my gulay, i was suppose to say the EXACT thought that my professor gave. after he writes it on the board, i think of the best idea i could ever think of, and what i think was: "Man is threat to man, that like a wolf a man can can be threat to man cause of his to much desire for one thing and he could even hurt other for his own advantage" that could be my idea, BUT i didn't have the chance to let it all out! i'm really disappointed with my self! now that's a lesson for me, that whatever i am thinking of with regards to my lessons, i should say it whether its wrong or right, ful of sense or non-sense, basta masabi ko kung ano yung idea ko para hindi ako nagsisisi sa huli na kung bakit hindi ako sumagot! philosophy of man/12:50pm
that's it! another day, and i pray thta tomorrow will be as productive as it can be! and for the Glory of the Lord... God speed!
Friday, December 02, 2005 @ 9:55 PM by Marj |
early in the morning, nagising ako sa ingay ng component namin, nagulat ako ang lakas ng sounds and take note: "naka FM-station" another note: "ang mga kanta panahon pa ni kopong-kopong" sino bang hindi magigising dun. sabayan mo pa ng vibrate ng cellphone. pero walang epekto, tinamaan na pa rin ako ng antok, iniiwasan ko na nga pero sapul pa rin ako! Back to sleep, pero ginising na naman ako ni mother [around 5:55] para gisingin ko si yvonne pero wala naman pala siya pasok kasi 'field trip' ng highschool. kaiinis di natuloy ang naudlot kong pagtulog... kahit papano naman nakaidlip ako ng 20 minutes... di ba saya ang antukin ko! bumangon ako around 6:30 pero gusto ko pa rin matulog pero no choice kailangon ko gumising kasi i have to go to school... medyo blangko pa rion ang isip ko hanggang sa maliligo na ko pati nga yung kettle hinawakan ko ng matagal, knowing na maiinit yun! hai ang utak ko talaga tulog pa! sige fast forward...[around 7:20] by that time tapos na ko maligo, pero parang di pa rin nabasa yung utak ko! ang tagal ko pang nagpaikot-ikot around the house kung anu-ano yung mga hinahanap ko! ewan ko ba my mind was really out somewhere, namamasyal pa sa outerspace! then walang kanin, i was supposed to eat breakfast pero wala na yung kanin, nilamas na ni ate? anabel [wondering why with '?', di ko kasi alam kung dapat ko ba siya tawaging ate, pero ok lang mas matanda naman siya sakin] yung kanin kasi gagawing fried rice kasi obernight rice yun, daming natira! at dahil dun di ako nakakain ng breakfast, again! kaya as usual, MILO na naman but it's ok mas magand ana yun kesa naman walang laman yung stomach ko! siguro mga 8:15 nung natapos na ko sa daily ritual ko! and siyempre i'm late for this at dahil nga late ako, hindi ko na naabutan yung last trip ng bus! whoa, freaked-out! no choice, sa jeep ako sasakay. the next thing was all paranoia...
there's plenty of things running on my mind, especially if i will make it to my first class which was statistics that on our last meeting i didn't made it because of traffic. i was worried if i would not make it again and my 'down syndrome' was virusing my system AGAIN.. the whole time, i still worry about the clock, but when i saw that i was a kilometer away from metropolis and it's just 9 o-clock, my worries stop for a while, it it all again begun when i think where will i ride, 'cause if i ride in an ordinary bus it would be faster that jmt 'cause i thought that jmt would still be waiting for some passengers andit would take longer, but TAKE THE RISKS, i walked to the line where jmt was parked and i pray "sana ako na lang yung last passenger" and God answered me... yipee... i'm on time! Thank you lord!
/fast forward/
nung nasa socio-class na kami, ayos ang topic "socialization and personality" two words na kulang ako! medyo ok naman yung discussion and i manage to interact with the class pero marami pa rin ang mga iniisip ko at eto yun 'nilagay ko sa post-its for blogging purposes':
i miss HANNAH... >ewan ko ba kung bakit bigla ko na lang na-miss si hannah, kasi siguro kahapon katext ko siya and namimiss ko na talaga siya.
it seems like God is doing something so that i can take HIM out of my mind >obviously it was 'blue_ears' [who is this??? it's for you to find out] it just happend na nakita ko na naman yung barkada niya, twice, pero siya hindi ko siya nakita... naisip ko naman iguro ito na yung way ni God sa pagsasabi niya sakin na he's [blue_ears] not worth my time. nauubos kasi ung time ko kakaisip sa kanya.
i am bothered about PERSONALITY! waah! Who Am I!? >our topic is personality and our proffesor tried his best to tell us kung ano ba talaga yung meaning ng personality, pero sa dami ng meanings and examples na binigay niyam di ko pa rin ma-gets ung real meaning nun, and it bothered me!
i need change for my study!!! >well, nothing new. lagi ko naman naiisip yan eh!
but the greatest thing that happened to me this day, nung nagkita kami ni jhen. kasi wala kaming p.e. that's why maaga kami nakauwi. i texted her and boom uwian niya na rin! e di nagkita kami! i really felt weird kasi parang isang taon ko na siyang nakikita nd i really longed to see her. vioala, nung nakita ko siya, parang tumalon yung puso ko, buti na lang napulot ko agad! wow, pretty talaga, and siyempre ang una kong napansin ung earrings niya! ang ganda niya talaga! and i'm very blessed na nagkita kami! i really miss her, dami na naman namin napag-usapan. and mostly natatahimik ako kasi i've just wanted to hear her voice... i really miss her and malapit na yung bday nia, of course pati si hannah! sosyal si jhen sa 'pacific' magde-debut... and one thing i'm really longing for is, yung magkikita kita kami ulit sa bday nia! REUNION!
well i'm kinda sleepy nah! and i need to get up early...
GODSPEED!
Thursday, December 01, 2005 @ 10:48 PM by Marj |
di ka na napapagod, pwedeng tumigil ka na... matagal ka ng tumatakbo sa isip ko! bakit hindi ka mawala, bakit ayaw mong umalis, nahihirapan na 'ko, buong mundo ko'y bumabagal tuwing ika'y nasisilayan.. pwede ba, tama na!
what the heaven is happening to me? what is going on... you are SPECIAL! but WHY? i don't understand... At first, I think it's just a simple crush, an infatuation. That everytime i saw him, it made me smile but after a while the feeling's gone. i just simply think that it would be nice to have a crush, just a crush, for some fun & 'kilig' moments... But as time goes by, i feel different, i feel something DIFFERENT. but then again, i told myself that it's just an infatuation that after a while it would vanish forever... but it doesn't
not now, never! please get out off my mind... and please let me go.
Stalk Me!
